I've been really struggling with a particular question which God chooses to remain silent on. Not knowing makes me feel insecure and unsure of myself in so many areas; I've prayed and prayed, but there is no clarity to be found. But even in the midst of this frustration, God still lets me know that he's with me every step.
For my birthday, Trisha gave me two beautiful ceramic angels. One says on the bottom of her dress "Lord, hear our prayer" and the other one just says "Courage". When she went to pick them up from the Hallmark store, she asked the saleslady for the boxes that they were shipped in. The lady went into the back room to search for them, and came out with one box. Then she unwittingly gave Trisha a message to me from God- she said "well, the prayer box is full, but the courage box is empty".
Cool, huh? As I said to some friends, it's nice to have a diagnosis, even if you don't yet have a cure.
6 comments:
Faith, I must be a melancholic too - I learned a long time ago that if I just jump in, it works out - often differently than I had planned, but all in God's plan. God bless!
These encounters are never coincidental. Thanks for sharing.
A good friend of mine always reminded me, "God can't steer a parked car."
I'm always terrified of doing something wrong, of saying something wrong. But as long as I stand paralyzed, God can't direct me.
Yes, it takes courage to step out in an unknown direction, in the midst of God's silence. But until I do, I'm not giving God a chance to speak, to act in me or through me.
I love you, my friend. Let me know if there's any way I can support you!
Faith, I love it...the message from God in the "boxes," I mean! Here's something I just read on Johnnette Benkovic's blog:
TRUST= True Resolve Under Severe Testing
Sounds like you're experiencing some "severe testing," and your continuous prayer, in the face of His silence, is "true resolve." God will reward you more than you can imagine for your "faith"fulness."
I find the answers always seem to come the moment I just take a step in faith, without knowing for sure if that was what God wanted me to do. Maybe that's what makes it true surrender??
You're inspiring!
Papes maybe you should start a new blog for all of us melancholics. Love you, Hoper
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