" I implore you, my child; observe heaven and earth, consider all that is in them, and acknowledge that God made them out of nothing (ex nihilo), and that mankind comes into being in the same way..." 2 Maccabees 7:28

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Fear of Flying

I went out to visit friends in Seattle; this was the first flight I'd been on since last January when we almost crashed. I thought I'd be okay, but it was not my finest hour. From the minute the plane took off my heart rate accelerated and I couldn't really calm down, even when the flight was smooth. Every jiggle and bump made my palms break out in a sheen of sweat ( I could actually see it) and I was shaking slightly from take off to landing, but really shaking after landing. This is going to put a crimp on my love of travelling. There was a really nice lady sitting next to me; she said, "honey, you don't like flying, do you?" How could she tell? Was it my dialated pupils? The way I braced myself on the seat in front of me with every bump? Praying the Hail Mary out loud?
She said "I'm here for you, whenever you need me". What a nice person.

I'm thinking about trading in my frequent flier credit card for one that wins you points towards cruises instead.

By the way, Feb. 12th was the one year anniversary of my diagnosis.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Im learning in Psychology (something you probubly learned already) about getting over fears. You have to have 100+ positive experiences to overcome the stress of 1 bad one- so I say keep flying!! theres always drugs!
I know someone you could ask about to see if you want that credit card with cruise points...

hopeyg said...

Hey Papes,

Can your frequent flyer tickets be transfered to someone else?... Just a thought. Hey you could try
EMDR to get over your fear of flying. Love ya, Hoper

Kathryn said...

I had a girlfriend with intense fear of flying. She would find an open bar and down a double vodka martini before boarding. Worked for her! Seriously, congrats on making the first flight. Was the return flight any better? Good seeing you today!

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